its a dogs life

whats in store, well this month i think i am going to hit the road some, and sorta recape what will be the final stragdys of all this stuff

being here in SA town, what i have realised is one of my major handicapes is my lack of computer graphics skills today, man these younger guys are like walking movie media firms they know all! of the stuff, i think one of the characteristics to contempory art now is it has to look like a film still from some esotric happpening, it cann't be some awful thing like a painting, how old fashioned!,
some of the guys around here are masters at this stuff, i mean they look good know how to creat a realy slick package.
So i need to get my shit straighted up here, and do it myself, i hate depending on folks , plus its expencive,
so i could really predict that by the end of the year this CDC site might go threw some changes as soon as i get total control over it, its on loan from the only link i have down, there is alot of info on this site i don't want to lose. and one good thing is i print off all this stuff and had made a massive journal out of it, looks pretty good!,
but the site or this type of activity will problaby become more advanced, adding a gallery and some other nick nacks to it, but no comercials! or ad crap, keep it simple, only blogg bs,
i don't know who out there reads it, but my little counter goes up, i figured i must have alot of people from China clickin on or something,

so its the begining of the end, well
the end that will last for about a year and a half,
one thing abotu being by myself alot is i am really relaxed in my apt, is so comfy i havn't lived like that in years, may be to comfy, i had this one lady over, and she was sorta appaoled at the way my footon was on the floor i likened it to the way a golden lab would sit on one of those round pillows, ., what the fuck bring a matress and fram up the stairs, all you need is this footon, .
i think too relaxed has some things about it,
like i have a tendicy to dwell on stuff to much like the love loss bs, and i figured out that i am obsessed with preventing conflicts or fights with people, harrasment is ok , but when it gets serious, i start to obsesse over it and get nervious , not that i am in any situwation with any body but i worry about future sitwations, why?
comming here, one thing that really set me off was the conflict i had with Mr Budd over stuff, he is as equally as screwwy as i am , he would admit that, but this new generation , i can imagine has no boundrys to going over board on stuff, so i worryed about that, where would the conflict end, its the imgined conflicts crap, well it was triggered by me and budds disagreements , how serious was it? well to me it set me in total panic mode, why, cause i would want to resolve the issue, which ment become obseseed with its resolution, which ment harrising the indiviual to a conclusion, Drek know this side, but its more out of nerotic chatter,
but what if it got serious, where would it go, ?
being so relaxed about stuff my dream world is parradeing all sorts of sernerios out on me, its been fun solving them as to what actualy is the core problem.

the way i have lived over the ten years was short of a pit bull very ruff, you don't think about alot of petty shit, you become more like an animal, which is funny
last night as i resisted tothe temtation, and failed , in not going to mcdonnals to get a fry and double cheese burger for two dallars, after drinking, (this is fucking up my diet) there is this wierd wolf husky that sit out in this parking lot all curled up its been there several times, the resturant is on the side of the high way 1604, and there is alot of trees around, i ask the employees about it , they said they feed the dog old hamburgers its a stray, a fucking husky wolf dog, probly a year old, it had real blue eyes(real nice looking),
i thought ,man thats all this dog knows for to now hang out in this wooded area, durring the heat of the day and its fucking hott and, slip out and wait for hamburges at night, hummm,
so is the life of a stray.

Posted by chickengeorge at August 4, 2006 10:20 AM