the end of may

So whats on the production list,
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i have been hanging out with herald alot, sorta listening to him go on about angle and his inventions, its weird sometimes, i think he might had been more introveted than i was back when i was his age, he is in a real up roar over this new babe who has fell apon on him, his mind is racing off anxiety and lust, it sorta reminded me of the old days of WWW, thats her symbol, hanging on every incounter and what was said and ploting and planing etc, i told him alot about its an addiction, drama obsessions, and unresolved issues of love and self,View image

he's working harder than ever on his inventions or ideas for inventions, its almost squiziodphic, i would swear i have heard this dialoge before,
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last nigh, we go to taco cabana , and chat about, life etc, i try and be as honest as possible about becomeing aware of where your mind ventures to, but who am i to judge stuff, when it all comes down to it its just life, and some people deal with it others aaahhhhhh
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which alway gets me thinking about exactly what the fuck i do? the only rational way to figure it out is bacily you make stuff and sell it, the comment, is like a two point axium of the artistic mind, ones, in and the other is out, you deal with intior ideas and then you push them out to make more, , the pushing them out is the tuff part, if your consitpated, i think the more you crap the more you eat, the figuring out how to get rid of stuff, aka sell work is the tuff part, but then i do know people who sell work alot , and its easy for them, maybe too easy they might have diearria, or loose stool,
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alright enough potty talk,
so back to herald, this next project is call the thing that makes things, like herald and richie morfed together in a project, ,
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that was sorta the new /old concept i was juggling around with , is?, introverd vs extroverted, who is what? , and how its like a sliding scale, never on too far, i am a little of both but mainly introvered, on the baramater to tell is how restless someone is, how content do they sit with them selfs, introverts i feel are very content, people to do nothing but strew about stuff, one simularity i told herald about our lives is we have done pretty much what we wanted, nothing tragic yet, has compeled us to act, its like other than work , and love maybe what is thee more to American life, ? this being the set standard to consumer culture? one problem i faced ,about his age was,
well,
listening to my old highschool buddies who are emerced in the corprate America, i knew i was entering a race in a wheelchair,$$$ wise, i had no desire to leave the studio, its like a protective castle,
one of the things i tell alot of people arond here, older artists and under ones, i used art to excape from having to deal with a real career, and now look where i am at? good bad? ahhh who knows
its more like a bad scripts of "inventions and rambleings" and blessed be if you go insain over it ., but you will devope a hell of alot more skills trying to avoid life thur art than making art shape your life's "needs" (what that is , is up to definition)
that comment in regards to who you might be when you get older, 60 plus
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but , i would put herald in the introveted catigory, jimmy would be his oppisite, he feeds off peoples energys , becomeing and changing, etc, where to me or herold the standard of satifaction is somewhere burried deap with in the mind,
both have there weekness,
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one way i know how one deals with life is once you want something can you be judged unforthy of having what you want, love has a way of proffing , what your inspire to be, hopefully the vehicle won't take you down a dead end road,.
but its that emotion of "want"
that rise through out ones life and eventually crashs or goes into a long simmor, but if the crash is to great, the ego repairs itself and never really ventures back in,
i am still open,

Posted by chickengeorge at May 31, 2007 11:53 AM