trojan, three more days to go

its late and i am hanging out around the studio, Herald came by , we talked about his "babefest" party he threw last friday or it was mainly organised by scruffy, in an antempts to see if any babes would warm up to herald,
naaa,
its quit pessimistic,
i know the road all to well,

i tell herald that , if he wants some babes he is gonna have to get a life and do something , bitchs don't go after nerds, well how do we get some charm here for starters,?
it was a nervius evening for ol chicken, i guess i need to grow up and release things and ,
well partying ,
i was wondering if herald would catch on to it , he doesn't drink , but had all these women over , who sucked down every jellow shot and free beer he had,
he said "well finnaly the beer is gone i have rom in my fridge", but for what?

i sat here this evening in the grips of yelling at him why do you want to party! and go after women who don't like you? why?
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I used to have a healty loathing for party women, my old suprior "Apostle Paul complex" there is something better to do with your time than party and chase women
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how do you win this shit!
for nerd /geekdome babe worship?

i sat here the most of the evening wondering what i did when i was his age(he is 25), , i never had a "girlfriend", or any kinda of activity was scares, i was like a nevrious wreck and hitting on women was much like heralds, , I was a nice guy,
but that's
as i have learn isn't the way to attacked women in the early 20's, .

as time goes on things lossen up, with women, mainly thier waist bands,
and it becomes easyer, , they might show some enthusiam, , less working trying to convince them your worth a damn, and this ackward nerdium gives way to a safe guy one could build a life with, but you better have some money, cause that, what building is all about,
,.
ahhh'
i said i wasn't gonna bitch about stuff, but

whats life with out commentary

its got me all worryed about where my love life has gone, right down the tubes, in this new post BT era, i have visions of the grim ripper, watching over me pointing as to what my next new steps are gonna be,
its the call of the "city of chickens," and well love and romance, its nice but i am to lazy,
an my ego has time "going after " women i cann't respect..
scruffy?/? i lungded after here, a gesture, but it isn't the right time
humm,

rolling arond in my bed at night wonder, its always been like this and maybee its normal and maybe i am going to be pulled into the darkness of the coup...
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ahh its late you have to keep this in mind,
BLACK SABBOTHS the "wizard" is playing in the backgroud, and i am coasting on a high of hotglue polyurthainn and krilar

one of the notes i wrote back early was
the basis of life is finding a good pussy, ?
this comming threw a drunkedn twilight of a pussyless guy, (when i wrote it)
but its meanig is simple that at least for stright men, that, its somthing on the level that
when the shit comes into being, and you deal with an individual, and they are fucking you or making love, one changes
you losen up,
stress is desolved
and you can die
threw the eyes of another
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