trojan

one thing i have been getting into or trying to resolve is the 9-11 deal

alot of my friends have these videos on the conspyricys of 9-11, it blew me away watching some of them, its left me , with , what the fuck is real any more, some of the challeges to the data of 9-11, is to what actually took place, what really did it for me was the dropping of the third building, but none the less its got me all fired up , and talking to folks about it, can be maddinging, its basicly left me, as alot of my additude about what's believeable history, i don't believer much of anything any more, like the whole world is a court, and things can be blurred, alot, its human nature., welll basicly i don't put anything past human nature, maybe i am a synic at heart,

i think i am going to make a 9-11 building , callled "conspircy structures" and load it with fire crakers, like a arcutectaul model made with matchsticks and have firecrackers hot glued to the main frame, i was sketching out a mockette of it, earlyer,.
its not so much the 9-11 deal thats fustrating its that the truth, or any truth is so alusive, i guess people will believe what they want to belive in the end, but the actual facts of any case, can be hard to determind, when you have oposing viewpoints fighting for arranged facts, and establishing a fact, is a challege in itself,.,
hummm

trojan

well its on to get the Trojan deal done,!

and fast i want to pitch this to some places,

and i am aqumulating tons of projects in the wake of it,

I think the green lake deal is shelved, yet again,!
i just don't have the energy to do it much like last summer when i went into this, i couldn't complete it, which means the scruffy deal is no more, it was like alot of the summer eposodes, they sort rise and fall with the heat, but things move on, and so do pictures,

I have a cold right now feel like crap,
so i have been a little ansy, wierd paranoid like, but luckly this cold has robbed me of the energy to make an idiot of myself, i also fgot to talk to this new guy Ian he is fun to talk to,

trojan makings

this is the intior of the base of the Castle facade of Troy.,

humm
the history of paranioa,
as expressed there all these drama's

One thing i have learn by being here is what folks think of me and some of the antics /drama etc that get created about stuff, alot of it is just me but ,man i sure can go nutz with the stuff, my mind starts racing like listening to crazy matt talk about being bugged etc, you become convinced about what leads to what its all very female, what people say and actions that occure right out of view,
i must have alot of woman in me, to get all worked up over stuff, but also abusing drugs don't help either, being around my apt i spend alot of time by myself i have a tendency to dwell on things to much read to much into them, they take on live fighting causes, ,
I rember one time when i was in school over in SWT, a friend of mine made a painting, Ming, he made this painting of me being beet up by the art police, i thought it was an odd painting, why would he make such a painting, well, in retrospect he has heard me rant and rave over art click group conspiricy and who gets what were and why, its the maddingly insectual world of art and shows, , my simply paranoid mind can only fly off into some odd direction based on any slants or disagreements of stuff, ,.
Another problem i discovered i had was my jealiousy or , really the root of it, was my competive nature thrown on guys, especialy guys who get the girl and i fail at it,
Women act as a kinda judge and jury in this and as soon as its passed, you have this other guy , what do you do?
Its been odd exploring this this sumer , all this sleeping brings up these wierd memorys ,
When i was haning with curtis we talked about issues relationship stuff, and i told him i don't really have problems with women as much as i have probelms with unethical men, especially one who are on my side,.
it must be the vigliantte streek made in me when i was young fighting off these bullys, which is the root of the problem anyway,
really were my art started form the begining, art made to curce my bullys,
which was hate art, but really obsession , and the power of concentration siezed form it,.
I have always held women's desires/opinions/passion in high regard, but guys on the , other hand, might i be the lesser,
hummm
troubles arise..
friday13th style

status

the status now is lets get it on!
i am making the base of the Trojan castle facde this weekend, and a couple of sketchs, but it sure is hot out !
i have been slowly putting together the grean lake paintings using alot of medium , its a fun set to put in motion,

whats cooming up!

well,
its the cuffs of the new season, and what's to be expected??
hummm
i know for sure i am going to begin the makings of the Trojan project
or as i have called it "contract with America" or what was that called the Rumfield deal
Drek help me out here,
its gonna be huge, i started making it the beging of the summer, there will be two drwing acompanying it, too,.

that and the redevolpement of the work made last year the final pack of this kinda work, 20 total,
So what else,

apt living

yep this is living in my mini apt,
boy it sure is relaxing,
Natural lite and flying fishs, K-Cross

i am wrapping things up here sorta back and forth to to San Marcos, but there are alot of things in store!
one being the master set of 2005 -06 work
and the the chicken bone trojan horce, with castle that i seem to have forgotten over the sumer,
plus
the ever evolveing set known as Green lake, me and scruffys adventure into water ,figures and drinking

so what else is going on, ? hummm, i am losing weight, not eating as much, i guess the only thing that matter know is making theis fucked up idea of a life work and keeping fit like rambo, , i am gonna have to shelve womens issues, for a while,

not this week but the next i will be in full swing again, and hot on the work mode, i ended up getting some expencive detutagant, cause scruffy said i smell, that cheep dallar store stuff don't do the trick, , women like cleen cloths, she ain't no hippy chick, who like smelly cloths, she like them clean, so i am cleaning my act up,

this is the view from my futon, i see this alot, i was wondering all the sites form a bed i saw, over the years,

shed pic

a night at the triple crwon

well last night i went to see the spides play
got real smashed, too, but ran into chris lead singer of the band
il get a link down

he used to live here in the chicken house about nine years ago, this band is one of my favorite to see over at this welll know bar called tripple crown, it used to be a called toyko tan back in the nintys it was a "massage" parlor, odd having something like that in down town,.
i think i have had some of my best hard rock experiances watching these guys play, the power! the power!,
the sentiment i would get by listing to AC/DC type of stuff,
well i started talking to chris about what he has been up to,
and i started to remember this story about him, that was one of my favorite anitdotes about people leaving the country,
Some where in the depts of post college slumbers
like us all here, this house colected folks in this postion, chris moved in, this was before the band was created, he was in limbo, working at this motel, i rember he had this hot girlfriend, and was trying to form his first band, but things weren't working out and he became depressed and restless, living here it can make you this way if avoid forming any plans on getting the fuck outta here, san marc is like a black hole, one could comfortable rest here for ever,.
but if your an aspiring musician , one want to prove ones work, as so with artists.
Well chris joined the peacecore and was on his way outta here, it was a dramtic move but he was a real humaitatin type of guy, so he was gone, i figured for ever, but after a couple of months, he arrived back at our house, ,
i rember walking into our living room late at night and he was sitting on the couch smoking scigarette, saying "you are not gonnna belive what happen!", in a slightly panic way,
From what i figured he went to teach in Zimbabwa(sp) and he accounted the tales of child abuse, to use, and his cultureal shock, or crimes of humitys was shocking, well nothing deadly,---( but he did mention last night that there is no more peace core in Zimbabwa cause of a murdered corp person)-- but the child abuse we consider here in the states is typical "training" to a third world nation esspecialy some where in central africa, one of my favortie storys was , he said, that the athelitics were nutz or gym class, he said that the really strong kids would get the fat and outta shape kids on this track and run them , and behind them with switchs the track went up a hll too,. Chris tryed to avoid these situwations but one time the teacher demanded chris beet a kid, , he said that he witnessed a bunch of kids getting there hands slapped with a ruler or stick, i guess all of this and this new pet he had, a kitten he found, came to a climax, he said the kitten had some worm that ate your insides out, and it was dying and he had to drown the kitten,. well he went "pyscho vac" a term the peace core used( i love that term) and he just walk off the job and on to the nearest plane to the states to form the band now called the Spiders,.
I guess there are some absultes that our beloved America has installled in us that reache a breaking point in other places of the world one is " you cann't beet the children" this sorta idealogy, of child abuse , and it is an idealogy. but after chris came back he was amped up and ready to go,
so some things do serve as a motive
oh yea and i forgot his other favorite story about chris and this could have been profitic befor ehis move to the peace corp,
we had this pet jacobs ram in our yard a year or two old called "noodles" , well we trained ram to play games and charge at people, chris was terrified of the animale and wanted to talk to us about the "attacks" apon him, basicly the ram would just come up and bang his head against you, nothing serious but one time when he was walking into the yard, noodles woud start to go after him, like the weekest link in the chain, and noodles performed the hopping charge, which was amazing to see, of cource chris would feak out and run inside,
and say "did you see that george did youe see that, "
hummm

San Marc

back in san marc..
well i am here n my old studio

spent the night here slept between thee roachs and dead pill bug, and channeling the outside aircondidtioner unit to my bed,
apon inspecting the house i realied that there is more crap here than ever,
, i think today i am going to clean up a abit,
so what else,
high lights from this sumer, hummm,
well ever sumer would be charterised by a specil babe or woman who charterised the whole deal, i gues with out a doupt it would be scruffy,
i told her about the whole skinny dippers deal and how this one lady got all irrated over it, ahhh , i am goin to have to work on each of these pictures to get them done perfectly , its alot of work.

one other project i have been kicking around is breaking out the men!
or playing with my romans and going back to gaming, but this time video tape it and submit it to a friend of mine curtis craven, this director outtta austin, the hug this room has , with my 4x8 desk plywood, in the middle is a perfect place to conduct a war, it would be real fun to gather a bunch of footage of me explaining how the game runs,
if i am not mistaken, j=low got a buch of fotage of me doing this but it was burried somewhere benethe her pillow, so i think its a good idea to redo the project,

harvest of Evil

i guess now , i have to do the skinny dippers deal
what i figuured its gonna be 6 large paintings, 10 med, and out 24 smalller one in colabrative with Scruffy,
i had some one check out what i was doing and she said its awful, and i am tastless
who was it, Picasso , said,
Art is a lie in which you find out the truth,

so i gotts to do this now, so some where around Nov this stuff will expire , i just have to keep focused on the deal, , its like composing a bad horror movie, . Thisone lady said "why aren't the men painted. are you objectityin women, ?" i told her i ain't gonna paiunt no me, they is ugly , excpet maybe a couple of self poits in the deal, admireing these ladys,
it was all to easy,.

this is unreal,

i actualy have this book and video

crazy video on Tilton, you can see this guys madness

yep., B Hinn

shennaigans

i think i should go back and make like Tilton/Scott in these day of the dead halloween muddy pond Preacher , character flights, like the cussing preacher, make these sketch and push them off on ebay,
thats what inspires me
along with a sic pac

skinny dippers tanked again

well i guess after last night i layed around my apt and thought about whats next?

Scott

Tilton

?!@$!$ this is the real shit!

AC/DC

bubb rubb
this was realinteresting, it turned into an internet explosion, on this guy

some of my all time favorites!

i think this kinda work the porn world of mentaly distrubed women swiming in a muddy pond is to much for chicken, its great stuff don't get me wrong but , i need to go some where else with it,
as i was looking up at my ceiling fan last night i was trying to figure the mess out, this whole scruffy deal is fun but it does have its draw back, pitchs from highs and lows,
i guess the sumer is over,
this second section of skinny dippers , might have to be post pond over till next sumer, when i have a more poised and removed mind, about it
so then what?
hummmm,
i am probably going to go over to san marc and brenham for a couple of weeks, and get out of this place, its like living in a mall or something,

so its soon time for chicken to hit the raod, and
get the fuck outta here for a while before the next wave hits

drek red 10

this is some of drek new work,
went to san marc for the day or so, still a mess but, got to talk to Freddy in his last days of being in town.

In the next couple of weeks i am going to hit the road, go to Brenham

whats in the news
the Orange Hill is a bust, no go but some how i am still on there site?
The Belcourt show has got some good reviews the Nashville seen wrote it up and had it named crittues choice of the week,
"Ruralists Collective Including painters from Tennessee, Texas and Alabama, the Ruralists Collective combines an academic understanding of contemporary art with a folk aesthetic to create a largely narrative body of work that draws from Americana, frontier mythology, rural iconography and agricultural traditions. The collective comes to the Belcourt Theatre lobby through founding member Harry, a local painter whose work has been finding its way into the hands of new collectors via shows at The Art House and Plowhaus alike. Including work by Franne Lee and Merrilee Challis, the shows highlight is the bizarre and brutal body of work by Texas painter Chicken George, whose mythic pieces are populated by snakes, goats and roosters and seem to be torn from a childrens book your parents wisely kept out of reach. An opening reception takes place on 6 p.m. Friday, Aug. 4. JOE NOLAN"

VM studio or Vince Martinez,

you know one of the projects i think ima going to make is a new site, hays county folk art heros, i was thinking about it again this weeked, i think VM would look perfect in the site, him and Stevo, grady would sorta fit,.

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Anther brick piece, it was going to Orange hill, the Brick work paintings scored a big one out of the "Fire in the Belly show" over in blue star, one crittque wrote somethign on the "tunnel" painting in the New York sence on line art mag,. review of the SA sence,.

I was telling scruffy, i think i must strive for awful sentimental stuff, or good old fation male obsession art, this piece above sorta shotty,
in the end game of being here iam going to have an E show based on all my friends drama, one section of it will be love gone wrong,
so whats in store for CDC

still to come Kathys profile and studio,.

Skinny Dippers, and scruffyology

its a dogs life

whats in store, well this month i think i am going to hit the road some, and sorta recape what will be the final stragdys of all this stuff

being here in SA town, what i have realised is one of my major handicapes is my lack of computer graphics skills today, man these younger guys are like walking movie media firms they know all! of the stuff, i think one of the characteristics to contempory art now is it has to look like a film still from some esotric happpening, it cann't be some awful thing like a painting, how old fashioned!,
some of the guys around here are masters at this stuff, i mean they look good know how to creat a realy slick package.
So i need to get my shit straighted up here, and do it myself, i hate depending on folks , plus its expencive,
so i could really predict that by the end of the year this CDC site might go threw some changes as soon as i get total control over it, its on loan from the only link i have down, there is alot of info on this site i don't want to lose. and one good thing is i print off all this stuff and had made a massive journal out of it, looks pretty good!,
but the site or this type of activity will problaby become more advanced, adding a gallery and some other nick nacks to it, but no comercials! or ad crap, keep it simple, only blogg bs,
i don't know who out there reads it, but my little counter goes up, i figured i must have alot of people from China clickin on or something,

so its the begining of the end, well
the end that will last for about a year and a half,
one thing abotu being by myself alot is i am really relaxed in my apt, is so comfy i havn't lived like that in years, may be to comfy, i had this one lady over, and she was sorta appaoled at the way my footon was on the floor i likened it to the way a golden lab would sit on one of those round pillows, ., what the fuck bring a matress and fram up the stairs, all you need is this footon, .
i think too relaxed has some things about it,
like i have a tendicy to dwell on stuff to much like the love loss bs, and i figured out that i am obsessed with preventing conflicts or fights with people, harrasment is ok , but when it gets serious, i start to obsesse over it and get nervious , not that i am in any situwation with any body but i worry about future sitwations, why?
comming here, one thing that really set me off was the conflict i had with Mr Budd over stuff, he is as equally as screwwy as i am , he would admit that, but this new generation , i can imagine has no boundrys to going over board on stuff, so i worryed about that, where would the conflict end, its the imgined conflicts crap, well it was triggered by me and budds disagreements , how serious was it? well to me it set me in total panic mode, why, cause i would want to resolve the issue, which ment become obseseed with its resolution, which ment harrising the indiviual to a conclusion, Drek know this side, but its more out of nerotic chatter,
but what if it got serious, where would it go, ?
being so relaxed about stuff my dream world is parradeing all sorts of sernerios out on me, its been fun solving them as to what actualy is the core problem.

the way i have lived over the ten years was short of a pit bull very ruff, you don't think about alot of petty shit, you become more like an animal, which is funny
last night as i resisted tothe temtation, and failed , in not going to mcdonnals to get a fry and double cheese burger for two dallars, after drinking, (this is fucking up my diet) there is this wierd wolf husky that sit out in this parking lot all curled up its been there several times, the resturant is on the side of the high way 1604, and there is alot of trees around, i ask the employees about it , they said they feed the dog old hamburgers its a stray, a fucking husky wolf dog, probly a year old, it had real blue eyes(real nice looking),
i thought ,man thats all this dog knows for to now hang out in this wooded area, durring the heat of the day and its fucking hott and, slip out and wait for hamburges at night, hummm,
so is the life of a stray.

Aug, whats in store

You will soon forget the world and it will soon forget you,

bravo el' Egotistical, may your castle be made of sand..

and parrish the words of the skeptis and nay sayers