i have been hanging out with herald alot, sorta listening to him go on about angle and his inventions, its weird sometimes, i think he might had been more introveted than i was back when i was his age, he is in a real up roar over this new babe who has fell apon on him, his mind is racing off anxiety and lust, it sorta reminded me of the old days of WWW, thats her symbol, hanging on every incounter and what was said and ploting and planing etc, i told him alot about its an addiction, drama obsessions, and unresolved issues of love and self,View image
he's working harder than ever on his inventions or ideas for inventions, its almost squiziodphic, i would swear i have heard this dialoge before,
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last nigh, we go to taco cabana , and chat about, life etc, i try and be as honest as possible about becomeing aware of where your mind ventures to, but who am i to judge stuff, when it all comes down to it its just life, and some people deal with it others aaahhhhhh
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which alway gets me thinking about exactly what the fuck i do? the only rational way to figure it out is bacily you make stuff and sell it, the comment, is like a two point axium of the artistic mind, ones, in and the other is out, you deal with intior ideas and then you push them out to make more, , the pushing them out is the tuff part, if your consitpated, i think the more you crap the more you eat, the figuring out how to get rid of stuff, aka sell work is the tuff part, but then i do know people who sell work alot , and its easy for them, maybe too easy they might have diearria, or loose stool,
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alright enough potty talk,
so back to herald, this next project is call the thing that makes things, like herald and richie morfed together in a project, ,
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that was sorta the new /old concept i was juggling around with , is?, introverd vs extroverted, who is what? , and how its like a sliding scale, never on too far, i am a little of both but mainly introvered, on the baramater to tell is how restless someone is, how content do they sit with them selfs, introverts i feel are very content, people to do nothing but strew about stuff, one simularity i told herald about our lives is we have done pretty much what we wanted, nothing tragic yet, has compeled us to act, its like other than work , and love maybe what is thee more to American life, ? this being the set standard to consumer culture? one problem i faced ,about his age was,
well,
listening to my old highschool buddies who are emerced in the corprate America, i knew i was entering a race in a wheelchair,$$$ wise, i had no desire to leave the studio, its like a protective castle,
one of the things i tell alot of people arond here, older artists and under ones, i used art to excape from having to deal with a real career, and now look where i am at? good bad? ahhh who knows
its more like a bad scripts of "inventions and rambleings" and blessed be if you go insain over it ., but you will devope a hell of alot more skills trying to avoid life thur art than making art shape your life's "needs" (what that is , is up to definition)
that comment in regards to who you might be when you get older, 60 plus
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but , i would put herald in the introveted catigory, jimmy would be his oppisite, he feeds off peoples energys , becomeing and changing, etc, where to me or herold the standard of satifaction is somewhere burried deap with in the mind,
both have there weekness,
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one way i know how one deals with life is once you want something can you be judged unforthy of having what you want, love has a way of proffing , what your inspire to be, hopefully the vehicle won't take you down a dead end road,.
but its that emotion of "want"
that rise through out ones life and eventually crashs or goes into a long simmor, but if the crash is to great, the ego repairs itself and never really ventures back in,
i am still open,
So
its tuesday i am trying to complete, what is going to be the basis of the main set,
, one thing is its going to be a long sumer, for sure,
i am ready to get out of here and be on to this my new shootgun house, ahhh
one funny thing is going to be the Japan Deal, it looks like its going to happen, some where next year i am will be over there for about 89 days, crashing with jimmy in this college, how ol chicken reacts to it ? he said alot of guys who go over there don't want to leave,?
i am a bit of a home body when it comes down to it,
but it will be one hell of an adventure, San Antonio is great and all but its the city, and i like the outdoors more,
Cat Eye piece,
one of my more or less interesting moments as a pysche major way back was listening to the brain specialist talk about how they have figured out, how to control the eyes of a cat with special probes, i think he had a video on it, this cat was all hooked up, and the lab guys had this joy stick,
i think i am going to do a complimentary piece to this one where they invent a machine to control good and bad luck, secrets burryed deep with the black cat,.
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this piece, is called bizerk, i think this is spelling for it, more on this later
The values of the world won't pay your way to that which will grant you a world with in
i am working on two main projects, this cheeto deal, almost complete, and
the two other pieces,?
more on that later
The cheeote deal is gong to be a massive ebay thing i am going to throw out there with a utube bit to go,
its like seven works, plus a devil painting on paper and a self poitrate,
boy it sure is humid,
i bet its going to rain like hell tonight
first up on the project list
cat eye!
more soon
truck issues
well as soon as i put that tab down on my truck repair i got an email covering the bill, from a a couple of sales, , thats the way it goes folks,
good God i just dropped 900, on my truck to fix the wheel, i was flying down the highway and something started to go astray, luckly i made it to a brake place,
hummm
what else
so is the approach to this sumer's work , i better be organized about this, it can get messy,
so first up is, th ecompletion of these four maze pics
I think it will be good therapy to just post the work as they go, so i can get the shit done faster,
i have some interesting sides on the pacman-RT stuff,
more soon,
plus i am turning the defuncked cheetoes project out on ebay, utube bit on it soon
A drawing josh rois gave, me, realy nice piece
humm
Vist with some of my buddies
The main reason i went to san marc was to resolve my horn issue, i couldnt figure it out, cause i cann't get my tags untill it was fixed , luckly scott this guy below was able to help me out, it was a ground wire that was croded, i about took the thing apart, in fustration, I have known'ed Scott for a long time, he ended up getting a house here too, right after i did, he is about 50 now, and a real good artist, mainly drawings of old rustic junkyards, he like old mustangs and making art that looks like its been in the bottem of a river bed,.
He spends alot of his time riding his bike around collecting stuff he finds and draws, while working on his house , he also has a natural touch of gardening, he isn't gay, has a really nice looking girlfriend who lives in another state, Scotts the quintisensal hippy Austinite, live music, and beer. View image River bed art he makes,
He also likes to colect broken toys from all over the nighborhood, the photo of him above is typical, he is restringing xmas tree light, finding the bad ones, form a box of wadded up lights, humm seems like a fun midnight activity. View image his front door,
me ans scott like to drink beer, he like bush lite alot, i am more of a natty lite kinda guy, many times in the past we would get into these heated deabates about art and the mening of it , or could anybody be sucessful at it, one of the blaring contrast to why i came to San Antonio,
the old hippys arn't aound much in the ideas of young artist, thats the genral summery, but i being on the tale end of that generation , sorta are famlilar with that they valuse, and what they loath, Scott is no excpetion, we argued alot about the whole buisnes side to this, and this in general lack of markecting that the whole hippy idea of a artist, seem to embrace, i figured it was more spirtual than comercial, .
If you get scott really fucked up one can venture in to the hazzards of being sold out, and awful comercial world out there realy to sell your sold to the comercial devil, (i never thought it was that easy to sell out,) but to the typical Austin alternate post hippy neo slacker it right there waiting and will to turn you out on the street like a cheep hoe. hummm
come to think about it that was one of my other good frinds out cry , one of the disfunctional digruntal adjucts , he had a hard time , dealing with old age i guess, bill , called me up a couple of nights ago all drunk and boy i feel the worst is going to come to him, his mind is spinnning out of control and is obsession over women, and my imoral status as an artist who is being temped by the system, AKA get a job etc, (don't worry folks i am to old to work, rather sell for next to nothing that go to work)
So i don't feel its going to be a happy ending abouts bill, humm Scott, welll they both share a simular theme of this resitance to go out and sell work, something i guess i harp on them alot about, but scott seems pretty content about what he does, and live a carefree lifestyle, of swimming and tinkering around the house, ( which he has done a great job on)
I used to work with scott and mike, alot, there is one of my favorite stoyies to this, our contrasting work ethics
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Phill and rhonda, here in the house, they are about to go out and hit happy hour.
Drek and Josh wasting away in front of an X-box
One of our favorite past time is playing halo, this game for the xbox, on slayer sniper, me and drek mainly , josh just happen to sit down,.
one thing i generly concludd about video games is that its practialy could be called an addiction, maybe the ruin of alot of marriages, and surly the vise to escape the real world, for guys. well the real world of being social, men arn't really thet social of a creature come to think about it.
Drek is preparing his wayout of San marc whaere to?? View image"Older painting of mine drek has, lady in red, 1993, part of my femme fatal type of work
so this is the cleean out studio, sorta still working on it, , making ready for shooting of the pacman bs, sounds like fun,
humm what next stories to tell,
i don't know what new stories, i am always on the move here, its hard to settle down about stuff,
but i can tell you just a skim topics that pissed me off etc,.
one the return of the safty nazi fucks beurcats,, hummmm,
other stories, humm
Red Muds outrage over blacktops including in the ARM group deal, there is a whole storie to this,
one of my disgruntles adjuncts, buddies about to lose it, tales of obsessions women and drinking,.,.,
and a bold look into the future of CDC, chickendeadchicken
I belive
its going to the movie studio deal, if i cna throw it, i am just going to devolpe my own studio where i can just cut my idea of film, could it happen well any one with a digital minidvd, and a computer can , now, as long as they have the skills,
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some new ideas of paintings,?
I don't think its going to be as crazy as last sumer, , most likely i am going to keep it in and try and lose some wieght and get back in shapr again, maybe a ban on binge drinking, i also decied to not BBQ this umer, just eat alot of salids etc,
when i get over to my new shoot gun house
i went over there yesterday, and it was pretty nice come to think about it, i am going to be comfortable over there, excpet trying to get net going to be trouble, , no matter what i will be there in nov,
i also clean the hell out of my studio, this week, making ready for this new video project,
exploring utube options, in sorta taling about odd ball projects, like the defuncked cheetoes deal
Yeap, this was funnny night
i think the girls thought that there was going to be a humungious rally after school let out and bought some godd awful about of beer and liqur,
The night ended when the two hosts started to fight out in the cold water that had clay in it, not mud, they told me it hurt there knees,!, the wrestling was less dramitic more like who could pin each other down in the water, boy it was a sight to be hold to bad, i was to hung over from that last tuesday deal over at the cove to get in to the night festivitys, but, it was fun none the less, As the night went on Julie bout flipped out on this guy who was getting mean on her, and the mood got all serious and stuff was thowing everywhere, luckly it was out in the woods somewhere so no neighbors got mad,
i ened up leaving , around two,
i guess my party days are over
clean up my studio for shooting
well the process of shooting , ms pac man rattraps will start soon, and a bunch of constructed sides,
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humm i have figured out how the utube thing works, so i am going to get on to this idea more, i want to post the defunked cheetos project,
humm what else
Well the summer is coming on its getting hot again i can tell,
more tonight!
comming next
well this week, i am going to reform the Ms pacman deal, i have to make a swimg stand for it, like a standing mirror, and shoot, both that and yars, in this dual set,,.,.
julie is shooting this minimovie on it,
for the last acts of this deal, like a 45min, dvd, type of things,
it will be humor,
more to come folks
shoots of my shootgun house, and julie's crazy party!
plus the return of herold,
yeap folks
i am going to the movies! more, and i have some plans!
HeHeHe!
One of the things i have realised about all this art making is i like movies alot, and will i might as well get into the expermental movie makig idea, alot of my heros are guys like ed wood and the chicken man from roanoake, Va, there is a who story to that , and amature horror movies 80 slasher films, likl had a stong idenity with "America movie"
so
what kinda movies would i come up with something , one guy could do, i had ideas like making a rattrap world, flooded with roaches and and set on fire and put out with nachocheease, some thing scientic about, it all i need now is the space, maybe sometime down the line,
that seen from el topo, this lizards and bullfrogs,
So what shapping next hummm, i have some truck issues to resolve, my horn is out, what else,
i am going back to these two other sets of work i started in winter, this one on cat eyes control and bad luck, plus a goat/cow stuffed with explosives, , working on this week,
one of the piviting points to the dislplay was my explainations about hannings, sex , duals, horrormovies and the unknown grave,
the term came form the movie, can any one out thier guess what movie it is?
if you can guess the movie?
ill send ya a prize! chickengeorge1236 at hotmail, dot com
View image then there is this sculpture, yeap jimmy sucessfully made it single handedly impossiable for me ever to score with any chicks around here, with this piece, it was even in a local show, now he quit art and gave it to me, i have to make a crate, and burry it under the house in san marc, i look way to fat and retarded,
among other things
i figured out what i am like when i stay up over night, or skip a day with out sleep, i get a bit looppy, and more frank than need be, i lite into JARR about his work,. The paintin style up on top, all those self poits were fun, i guess after being hung over, i made about 8 of them that night, the calmness to focus made the pictures, i don't think i could have made them any other way, i placed a mirror in my studio and just went at it, while the smoker was rip roaring, to bad i forgot to photo stuff,
i smoke a briskiet, and had a damn grease fire at about 4 am,
this is a photo of, the cove deal,Download file
this bar i paint in, last tuesday, it was a bit crazy, i was swapping chickenpictures for beer, and it went way off, i had a desinated driver, was the problem, went home and threw up, ( havn't done that in a while), but my special lady, helped me out, alot, even know my head was spinnning and i was bemoaning over tortured love etc, but nothing out of the ussal, so i think i need to sorta get back in shape again, not so much more drinking beer,
hummm,
what else,.
this next chapter, is like this blocj before i move out of my apt, and on to this house, photos soon,
this set of work called structural dynamics,
Well its late here in the studio, i cann't drink any cause , i got to drunk over at the cove deal, man it was crazy, i had a desinated driver so, i went a bit over board on crap,
but that said!
lets move on in this painting blitz!
one thing i notice i am not as hyper as ussaly today, i am doing a bunch of self poitrates for this display, and some horror myths plus writting in this massive set, called,, hummmm?
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i would gamble to say, JARR is gonna be as pathic as i when hits 39, just a 90's version of heavy metal, hummm that willl be in 12 years from now,
well this is whats up!
or maybe not
who knows one thing i have stated about this f-art world is that there are two typs of fold, boy scouts and badboys, boyscouts colects mert badges t show how acmplished they are, and bad boys go about ther bizness, and it would be a boyscout that in his aragance would tell a lumber jack he cann't use an axe cause he don't have a totem badge yet....
one other thing i would have to give credit to in al this beeeze wax, is
my soul exisitance here in SA town goes to Ken Little and Drek, and katie pell ,
my kudos goes out to these folk for bring me to this great new phaze i am in,.,..,
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Atari "Dogem" , my new maze lay out.,,.,..,
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one thing i have noticed by being here in this studio is my relations to JARR, in some ways we are like twins on the oppisite scale of stuff, he this lean skinny grim ripper type of heavy metal 90's grung fuck, an i am 80's ass nuts wiener shit, AC/DC, fat and gross,
its like if there ever was a record of fations on the net this would be absulutely detail to the times we forget , like trivia
Well, not absuletely trivia, its a record i felt is many times recorded threw out America, and maybe the world for that matter..
the idea of this final project of the spring 08
its like a auto biographhy of myths and jestures, of subject
What does it means???
the design at least from what i can tell is going to be a continuwation of the last E show,
well alot of theses guys are pussy really
none of the drink much, not much of a reactions to anything, really, no ASS,
this is the basic lay out
something like text myth, and self with a clock on top
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so,
Alot of this kinda stuff, ..one thing i noticed is i like to go into the idneitty of myself as gesture of sorts, and make this like reflective works, i guess very male?
Well its May , i always like May its like the pre mid section of the year, a middle part between the begining of the year and the approach to the summer, all my plans for the year are made in may,
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One good thing i got going , i got somebody to help me edit this video i have rolling, its me chatting about 8 of my sculpture project, the grand sumemry of all this work is going to conclude this sumer,
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Next Week , i am going to have this big time dinner, the menu will be posted!
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new idea for some storys,
hummmmm
there is these two sculptureers or wood workers i am going to profile, .
The closing of RED 10 san marcos, and drek blog,
hiemo vist to my studio, some funny stories about that,
getting dates from the cove deal, funny
more to come folk!
