this shot was taken on thursday night, , i went to San marc and hung out for the day and ended up talking to Niel about life art etc, humm
well this is the last week left, and i am runnning on empty here, it just isn't the same, i need to call the Gods of AC/DC out and kick some ass here, drinking beer isn't so much fun either, i ain't eating so much, and like this afternoon i went and got some friend chickens, ate about three pieces and about passed out from a grease coma, woke up and are now just focused on the work at hang,.
one thing neil said was is my work gonna be lowbrow or soemthiing serious, i tolk him is this a statement or a dated responce, all i want to do is obsesse over killing off friday 13th part 3, ?
maybe this work is never ment to be see, like showy kinda stuff, i could see it best discovered in the a box in some abandoned house, curses Todd! curses!
of all my fav luv intrests, it all fads away,
its sad i would have to say that passions could rise so far as to belive it would never secet to bemuse
but i would say that,
that it ends
but maybe not,?
i ended up talking to linda, an i would say even know it means nothing to nobody , i couldn't believe i didn't care, but i do remember a troubled time when i did, and i may had had a chance, strange isn't it?
XXX
So whats next in this dept, ahhhhh, i feel its comming to sorta defencive close, like the gates ain't letting nobody ever in again, D knows what i am taking about,
but time does presist
and yet to our amazements
there are always applicants ,
View imageTMT shot, its still in the working phaze, i plan on adding a bunch to it tonight,
View image close up to another piece showing the workings of a mechanical Eye, not finished here
its time to break out the crack pipe!
but i is bunned out to a degree, i think this phaze is all but drained dry and yet i still got's more to do here,
So back to what i was saying about the projection of the CDC site here, one thing i am going to get into from what i believe is workable , is video, sorta like chickengeorge's adventures across America, so for any of you stalkers i will have a face to hunt, but the video bits are going to be more like my version of comedys, developed threw unstaged interactions, i have no idea what they are they just arrive there in the moments, basicly,.
When i was in Marathon 2002, i realised that my whole point of being there was to develope my relations to shirlie, the owner of this local pie shop, i loved to talk to her and she had some amazing storyies and old fation jestures, but the way i reacted to here was interesting, you see being in a small cowboy tourist town, especicaly a conservitive one, they ,the locals, had a hard time understanding what i was doing there, basily crashing in this old barn making paintings etc, so it was funnying to explain this to shirly which she thought it was hog wash, i had to have some problems, cause i didn't work etc, i ended up getting alot of advise on how to be a "man" from the ladys it was priceless, but i could see some interesting footage on meeting people,
kinda like Texas country reporter but dealing in all these wierd places,
so what does that mean for CDC, ?
its will be on tour,
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this is going to be a duplicate of a music machine,
So
one of the new phazes which ill be kicking in here in ahhhh lets say dec, will be my personal mission to be the SA dechirco, or freddy's grim smeared apon the streets of SA, what this might look like, ? puzzles me, to ponder a bit longer in tthis town,
but thats a long way off post Japan, some where a a year form now
, i also plan on keeping this main base here in SA, as of now,
well what i think i am going to go to is researching and video taping like wierd sceens taken from my local envorments, like were does the humor lead me,
Drek the voice of God is in secret training out in Katy Texas, i just got off the phone with him last night as he was trying to give me the bizness about stuff,
he said he was so outta shape and tierd and sick he had to fgo some where else the RED 10 mold really works on him, he said visual clutter make him ill,
so topics up this week,
Brian Jobe's piece up at Blue Star,
heimo , this guy who visted
the painters dual between me and RED Mud
and
still working on the TMT deal
So what to come of all this shit..
i guess its the cowboys life something i think is all but forgotten now,
ok
what new stuff to talk about
A painting i traded with Jason Stout,
he has a show over at Vtrue, here in SA
ok
lets get down to bizness, one hting htat been irrateting me is well,
i am about to open the can
the can on Serg, well
we have a show in Marfa, its a group show,
ill get a link soon to this, but
Serg done pissed me off about shit
you know this is a word of advise, about getting older, when you get older the friends you collect on the way , do they actually repay you by being your friend as you get older,
do friendships go extinct, ?
i have found that some people , if they don't seek your company as time comes on, don't matter, i alway repay back i like people and l like freinds who get to know who i am, an (i am sorry if i done pissed some folks off, )
but,
Serg, we share a unique background born out of the SWT painting system, and well we did the Redford deal and yes Serg is unique in the fact that we both have a near religioious presants about painting Texas and Mexico,
but our egos
humm,
i swear before i die i am going to write up the whole Redford deal, i think its a great melodrama about art ,race and insanificance, maybe delisionalism, but absulely , Texas
So back to Serg
Well we are in this group show and i am thinking it time to ruff this son of a bitch up, cause he done quiet painting ohhhhhh about four years ago,
You see this Redford Deal something happen there,
And
prides won't let be known that there is victory so i call, for a recount and maybe in the dusty rock of the Big Bend Desart , it might happen,
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but that said,
its one thing thats been missing, to sit in front of a canvas,
So back to the Big Bend,
I have a couple of deals lined up,
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I sure wish serg wouldn't be such an asshole and realise, that well we both know that money , is temperal and art , well personal history is forever, at least untill we die, ,
but there there is the net
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The Redford Texas Story conti....
i don't know if i am going to write it out here, i get to paranoid, but i could see it starting in Aug1999-2001, all that stuff,
th building up of the structural dynamics show in abut four weeks, this will be one of two final pushs of production,
then, the cheetos deal recovered, then
the Trojan deal complete,
then on to showing etc
then
get the fuck outta here for a while,
i have beeen staring at the Texas back roads maps for to long, like nothing else matters,
what new art dealings
I was going back to my past likeing all the greats , evert spruce and another character i talked to Justin about, E M swhitz , i know that isn't spelt right, but one of my old exe RED 10 pals, justin Gram moved out to the panhandle, i have been trying to get him to do a rustic haunted barn show some where, and went onto tell him how great it would be to just travel and do landscapes and barns around Texas, and sell at our wits ends, fish and be a bum and try and hussle up deal based on who we meet,
sounds fun,
my skill now as a painter are swift, he is going to have to knock out all that abstract stuff and hit some form of realism, for it to work and fast too,
maybe this is it,
making it big time in art might mean i cann't just screw off over by that sittin pond, but then there are always some show somewhere of not much merit, what else are ys gonna do , get a girlfriend?(even know View image
i already gots one) well i mean a real one,
ahhhh
the old range come a callingView image
hell i might be come a cowboy painter, but with jason and freddy as heros
well last night was stupid but fun, me and jimmy about threw up, i had to quit the game but he said that if i went further he would have thrown up on me, ahhh,, phots of the event and a utube bit produced by jimmy will be out,
i got in arguemnts with fokks about weather this was an art performance of a gag, i said since we are doing this to art crowds, it has to be seen under "art context" thats the new buzz word for saying i know that it could be anything eles but since its in a gallery we have to consider its intent not whats there,=
Ahhh so it goes,
So what else
i maked the calendar for another E show, so look out
Structual Dynamics II is commming up in four weeks form now, better start working real hard!
this is the base for the thing that makes things , its like little componenates that make up this machine that will produce a animal,
well tonight is going to be a really distrubing night, with jimmy a video bit is going to be made on it were me and jimmy have a beer milk contest and we end up vomiting on each other,
should be fun
but i don't think its gonna impress the babes,
So whats up in production
, i sat around today basicly putting a cap on it , i predict it will be a b;itz up till my b-day, this sept, ,
details of whats going on tonight
The thing that makes things
this is like a lay out to a factory that might prefab an animal based on the elements of the fleash, hummm what could they be?
so, whats in store,?
I was thinking about forming yet another site on top of the many new sites, i am thinking of,
hummm topics for thought
how the net has ruined my life, , basicly i spend to much time on it, View image Jeb,Josh,Jason,and Richie
You know, this whole deal started when i was able to get the net in my little shed back in san marcos ebay came along, then this site, an i am understanding more about this net, maybe next year i should take a break from it, give it a rest,
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oh well i was thinking about starting a site, based on stupid comdies about people, the idea came to me last night as i was talking to red mud about this guy he met a 70 year old minister who is on a campain to get men off net porn, i told him he should interview this guy and get alot of bits from, him i could spin a whole slue of work from this topic, and host a show, about how i was a surviving net porn junkie and its ruined my life, ,
you but amazingly i don't look at net porn on my new lap top, i am too affaid it would f-up my computer, its clean now i want to keep it that was,
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but it would be funny to get his guy and host site based on some of these pictures and .
You know come to think about it, the net and especially my ventures in ebay, have altered my habits of art making, ebay, spead up my painting , its actualy fun and is paying for all these odd bills, etc
but , i was talking to jeb about working again doing carpentry, the change might be goo for me to just take a break out of the studio, i don't think complete studio life can be healthy i get to inclosed and out of shape if i don't find ways outta here,
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my new and probabley final adventure is going to be the building of another studio somewhere out of san marc, i don't know here so much , i can see it as a studio for the these sets ,film sets that is , made for my sculptutres and making fiilm on it,
i think i went into this all before,
Stevan Zivadinovic: Orson Welles vs. The Burning Dumpster,
Sala Diaz
View image Jimmy getting jesse a beer, and gary is counting the tips, from the show at VTrue gallery View image Rubin in front of a Alix Rubio painting
So
whats going, on
well i am trying to down size my diet, and get ready for the weekend( and boy its tuff, i ate at chachoes last night and i about passed out when i got back here,)
hummm so whats in store ,
photos from the Texas uprising show, tonight, and a couple of my buddies are having a show over at Vtrue which was Eye 2 eye gallery photos on that,
so what projects are rolling around?
lets take a look! View image View image
the beginings of the thing that makes things,
humm
what else,
One of my good friends back in highschool jimmy k, went a bit Jesus bonkers and tryed to convert everybody i was one of his main targets along with tom,
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but this guy, or film maker kinda like an evanglitical "Borat," type of stuff, it is also like "Jon wayne Tex BBQ", and "TBN"put togehter, i was always trying to get Drek to get into this but not being sarcastic, more like the real deal bit in a reenactors kinda way, mainly targeting , all the liberal types, its a fine line between bating hate and being hate, but if your acting, what does it mean, its funny how religious stuff can make people go off there rocker, mainly the reaction to it, if i was to go on a crusade, it would be something as serverly geeky and aggressive as this tracy guy, or the skits he comes up with,
but back to jimmy , it even looks like jimmy to, oily long hair , big glasses, hummmm
One of my favorite stories about jimmy was he was always on a mission, and felt he was like a super hero or something lilke God is watching who he converts and the act he did, he was yelling at me in an almost psychoticly crazed mannor but very serious,
actauly i credit him for my whole intrigue into art, one of the perspectives he delivered was the world was nothing, nothing matterd but getting to heaven , so by that token, if you just believe, and i belived in art or my own acts of perpetual escapism, kinda akin to going to church to remined yourself who you are, well, then the material maul America didn't matter, hell nothign matters,.
well with that idea, i guess it had an effect on me right out of highschool and i ran with it,. but also cherished the unique world jimmy must have dewled with, what became of jimmy, i think he joined the navy and settled down a bit.,
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So what am i working on, hummmm--=-= the thing that makes things photos soon,! View image
a show comming up
hummmm
so on monday i am going to start what is to be the most massive production blitz yet, now until i guess mid aug,
then it will be another venture,
So whats up
hummm, any babe action? any wierd tales of gossip? what are my buddies up to? assorted tales form some of my exexexs, hummmm
i don't know
i can almost feel a change of activitys like almost shredding the past to cut some new direction, but then again,
as on of my old buddies Niel said, you can travel all over the world and then there you are?
one of the funny things is talking to herold about the nature of women, he is all cought up with this new love obsession, and she is, well playing the markect,
so to speek,
he has a hard time understanding this, i tell him well you see, women are like employers they are taking applications for the job untill they feel the job is no longer needed, then you can get along with them, but untill the mean time ,
your like under evaluwation for potential,. its a good way to figure out what your made of according to the latest babe you want to get with ,
your actual value, as contrastee with other men,
so he is depressed over it cause she is looking for some one who has their shit together etc,
i said
oh yea, another thing herold , you have to open doors for them , meaning help set them up, meaning have some $$, daydreaming artist types can only go so far here in suberbia, , thats one reason i am ready to get the fuck outta here!
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going back home , which was suberia, around Houston, i would hang out with some of my old highschool buddies, and see where they would go to find a date, other than work or the net, it was the local bar! and believe me, the women there geezze!, its gotten that bad, mainly the places between houston and galveston, thats where i grew up, it wasn't so bad, back then, but now, the suberia sprawl!, there would be no way i could survive in that zone, .
after looking at the career centric suberia devorcess one in a half kids, and with a massive additude, type of Texas gals , you wonder how many of my friend ever get any girlfriends and how it must work out, dating etc, you have to have a career thats powerful etc
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my ego now, is to massive to be taken down a couple of natches by some fat ass suberian woman who wonders why i have never had a job, and seem to like beer to much hummm yea?
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so its been fun talking to herold about the nature of women like talking about the strange tacking of a winter buck,
you see herold what she is up to is this,--=- yeaaa women do the same shit predicting ,anyway
thats one reason ,why i am going to go over to Japan and get a wife like jimmy there, or jim porter!
i have one test , i am going to find me a young philly and place a dallar in front of her and if she cann't identify what it is or have never seen it? i should marry her, i could see our life style where i tell here i have special powers to make things appear like pizza and beer, and she would think i am some super hero
as we hang out in some barn some where while i make a chickenheaded-pumkin master piece!
oh may i dream!
