the pits and triumps of ebay, in art and writing

when ever i got on the net and had my own computer, but i also think its been the ultimite undoing of what i do, already,. The undoing of it would be my constant posting and updating i think its to much for folks, it rolled pretty good in the beginings but as i became more crude and you add utube in on the deal you got a self promoting addiction rolling as art skits and sales, . what i like the most about ebay is the stats of the whole thing the measurements, its like your measureing how poplular you are, its funnny but something you cann't turn away from, and you start coming up with something more riduculas than that, the last plus the sales, are a jolt along with flat lineing , it really allows me to get withdrawn form the world and hang out by a barn and make stuff, money rolls in so you can pay these extranious bills, but also thats all you do, bigger projects get marganlised cause there is no watchers at the gallerys and no bids, etc,. Over all what ebay did for me was speed up my painting alot and make small expresisonist works about what ever i was rambling about at the moment and the pride to know somebody out there was going to buy it for next to nothing, but and the reason i am stopping all ebay activitys now, is that none of the stuff is moving now, and i think my crowds have gotten what they want and are just watching if that,, So i want to declare its over, ill be back some time down the line, when? i still have a ton of projects that are ebay worthy, but its time for me to grow up and sorta hit it somewhere else and obsesse about something that might go somewhere, ebay and the net, is fun but it can suck you in like a black hole and you don't really care about anything else, mainly when your high on it but when your low, yeaahaaa its time to find a new drug..
Ebay started almost where it began now, posting funny desperate type of work, begging and near suicidal pleas to buy my work! like sell anything type of stuff, it acted as blogging about being drunk or girlfriend troubles or about other ebay artists, or animals storys , fan art is another one, along with holiday art. i ended up moving over from what i can figure is over 450 pieces, with a handful of collectors buying over 25 pieces,. the highest fetched i think was 280$ the lowest 2 $, most ave out at 30-50 bucks, and actual amount posted i know was about 650 pieces. strechting from 2004 till now, the most retardest thing i posted was my exgirlfriends underware that was chewed up and passed there her dog, to a big box of cheetoes that were hotglued down to tar, houses made of chickenbones, and hog humpings to some actualy really good peices paintings etc, --- Going back to school , 2005-07 (Grad school )that was what the whole San Antonio deal was about, i secretly posted work and carryed on in my studio when all the real work was done and the beer was flowing thru a drunken haze of rambleing and loud music i would produce some of the best and most essotreic work collecting it as secret cryptic writtings about some undisicoved truth that i finnaly figured out last night, ,, and here is it for 9.99$ what the fuck does it matter,.,. So as my peers grew more suspicious about what i was doing the actual undersaleing of my self, i railed about what was any real value in art at all, in the $ dept, some folks who could move a 3.000.00 buck painting couldn't move a 10 dollar one to the same person. i like to start form the ground up. but as the years went on i ended up getting to know ol RedMud and watched him literal start form the first post till what he is doing now, and i have conclued that ebay is realy going the way on entzy if it ever really was interesting to begin with, but i suspect what the appeal for me was the rare items that would get over a thoussan counter hits 50 watchers, etc and go for a whopping 6.99, the trill to wonder why people were interesting in this and the compusion to try and out fuck yourself on the next, Red got the biggest high off the mike vick rides barrabaro, but i ain't that controversal mine is more pathic or crude style of humor, bar, self debasing kinda stuff,. Red said just make stuff that people want thats it, but being as neurtotic as i am if i make something that someone wants and they don't want it, your left askin why i made this, ,hell i might as well make something really stupid , i know they don't want that! but then it sales,,. go figure, .
The down side to the whole ebay deal is nobody respect it at all its the lowest of the low, in markecting, why people hate it? i don't know, i saw it more like a pornstar who, turn tricks on the side with hoodlums, like a crack hoe,. but at least there was something honest and desperat to it that i like, After UTSA the San Antonio stint there i sorta grew outta love with the fine art world, it seems equally as poltical and unrelaiable as ebay was, hell is there a differance? maybe its just me , i don't get out much, which is what the real problem is to begin with, the net!, its an addiction, and can suck you when you think your makeing a name for yourself as an artist/entertainer. but i differ on sex on the net aint the same as in real life. and maybe thats where i am back heading again , the West and a real make-belive life with out the net,. but who knows bad habits are hard to quit.